May 31, 2009

inspiration and music

I somehow feel inspired listening to They Will Kill Us All. Especially their tracks Midnight Express and Bright Lights. I wish I could explain it here, but I can't. Might have to express it in drawings. So, I'm going to get off my arse, go into my room and sketch. Haha :)

Right. In the meantime, enjoy.



I want the Nike Yeezy. Sob sob.

May 30, 2009


Headed down to Lookiss Gallery (I think) earlier today to pick up two paintings which dad bought. Must say, looking at all the paintings in the gallery, I secretly wished for my drawings/paintings/photographs to be hanging in one.

Must say, I'm intrigued by Clement Ooi's work. There were a few pieces in which he used a combination of ink and acrylic, I think. Oh well, I don't care. His work is marvellous. Also his work reminds me of Mei's drawing with pigment pens. Wuuu.

Speaking of Mei, I miss youuuu! And Zara, I miss you too! And my two Aisyahs (sobs)


Saw a picture of these pretty darlings in this month's issue and completely fell in love. They're the Nike Yeezy and its being sold at Sole What?, The Gardens. Oh my God, I wish I could just have them. They're so pretty. And to be honest, I'm tired of wearing ballet flats. I want a change. I want the Zen Grey one ;(

May 25, 2009

the obsessed

Kat kat, mati ah I esok tak dapat jawab. I sedih ni, so I kena aah dgr Victor main piano. Hehe.


Haha, Syaza crushing on Victor.

Cis, I miss Aisyah already. And I didn't get to call her. Syaza was the only one who got to call her. That ain't fair. Haha. Oh well. 2 weeks isn't that long. Okay, maybe it is (Sobs)

And if you're reading this missy, don't get a winter fling lah! If you do, get me one too. Syaza sekali. Haha (:

May 24, 2009


This sucks. I'm having the flu.
I don't know why I'm so prone to sickness this year. I think I've fallen sick about, five or six times in the past five months. I hate this. Its annoying. I've been siffing since an hour ago. I hate this I hate this I hate this *pulls hair off

Okay, enough of this. I'm going to cure myself with Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist soundtrack. Currently in love with Bishop Allen, Sundae and Lykke Li.

love love loveeeeeeeeeee

Because I'm in love
Ain't the clutch purty? Haha. Dad bought it for me from Amcorp mall and it was only RM15! Cheezels. The next time dad's going to to Amcorp, I'll be sure to follow. And he told me that there was a pair of Oxford heels from Marks & Spencer being sold but he didn't know what size it was so he didn't get it for me. Boooo :(
No matter, one thing is already checked off my "I want" list. Haha.

May 22, 2009

the typical Azams you'll get

We Azams were restless during our Pendidikan Islam/Moral paper. Know what happened?
  1. Annas was sneezing and we were laughing our heads off.
  2. I kept disturbing Syaza, and Aqilah. Hehehe.
  3. Fatin said "I love you" to me numerous times today :)
  4. Low was playing around with a pen knife.
  5. Basyar made paper planes.
  6. Aisyah kept saying "Susaaaaaaaaaaah susaaaaaaaaaah" or something else.

The rest, haha, we Azams know what happened :D

I nag too much

Diagnostic. My God. I think these past few months have been revolving around my diagnostic because to get the MARA thing, I have to score my diagnostic and now, I'm scared. Scared that I'll get bad marks for my Diagnostic. And if MARA doesn't accept my application, what will happen to me? I don't want to go to Adni. The fees are RM500++ a month and I want my brothers to enjoy that. They deserve better. I can make do with just a typical school. Yes dad, if I don't get MARA, I want to stay in Section 5.

Right, tomorrow's a schooling day. I haven't finished my art folio nor have I binded it and I want to send it in tomorrow so one heavy burden can be lifted off my chest. There's also the Projek Bahan Terkumpul which I think I'll send in after school holiday because neither mum and dad have brought home Berita Harian. And I'm going to finish the Geography folio this weekend so I'm free to send it in after Diagnostic. History folio, well, that will be sent in after holidays. Oh my God, I feel like bashing my head.

Now my head is spinning. Umar is nagging, Yusof is nagging and dad is nagging. I don't get guys nor do I ever wish to.

Tomorrow is Fatin's birthday. 26th is dad's birthday and on the 27th is Syaza and Syahmee's birthday. Wah wah. And I can't get them any presents because I haven't got money. But then again, I've never been good with giving presents. Heeee.

And Syahmee and I have been friends since we were born. Okay, sort of. Haha. Meera said that our mums used to "berlaga perut" thats why Syahmee and I are friends. Haha. Actually we've only just gotten close this year. Unlike when we were in standard 6. Oh well, friendships. They never cease to amaze me.

May 16, 2009

influences and inspiration

Lykke Li. She reminds me of Duffy. Somehow, I prefer Lykke Li's music more. I don't know why. Haha. I shall try listening to Duffy again. I need inspiration.

Oh yes. We have a band. I don't know if either Syaza, Aisyah or I should announce it. Haha. I'm waiting for the day the guy from the store to call my dad and tell him that my guitar is ready so that I can go jamming with my two fishes and let the whole of Malaysia listen to our music :) Yes, I have big dreams-lots of them and all of which are kept safely away in my pocket.

Okay, I feel like playing Lykke Li's I'm Good, I'm Gone. Cheit.

And besides that, I feel like playing Priscilla Ahn's Are We Different?. Okay, Aisyah. Listen to that song and as soon as you get back from Perth, we'll have a jam session :D

I can wish, can't I?

I wish to go, but I have other things tonight :(

May 10, 2009

omigosh omigosh omigosh

I can't believe I spent nearly two hours drawing characters for my art folio. Unbelievable. I thought I'd never do it. Well, it's due this Friday so yes, I'm going to finish it at all costs. And also, the Geography folio is due before holidays start and the History folio, after holidays. Oh my God. My head is going dizzy with folios, folios and folios. No matter, I thank God for them.


Earlier today, I played Scrabble with dad in the kitchen while he went to and fro, making meringue for Ibraheem's birthday. Despite the meringue, he won with 370+ points or so and I lost to him with 206 points. Haha. I don't know why, but I always lose in any kind of games. You name it. Monopoly? Scrabble? Life? Yeah, I'll lose. Yes, I'm a sucker as you know. Haha.

Oh yes. After much procrastination, I have finally gone to the Ampang Guitar and Music Store to restring my guitar and also to replace the knobby things. Apparently its all going to be nylon, but well, I don't know. I'm just happy that it'll have new strings-and perhaps, a guitar bag too. Hint hint. Wheeeeeeeeee. I can't wait to see my baby :) And apparently, dad's signing me up for piano lessons there after the midterm exams. So, yes, I cannot wait. Wah, I'm lucky lah this week *grin*

Oh Meeeeeeeeeeeei.
Get well soon! I hope your pneumonia goes away D:
I really do hope you get well soon. Sorry that I didn't text or call you. I'm still not good at these kind of things. Really, I'm not. You can ask Aisyah. I didn't even call to wish her Happy Birthday. If you're reading this Aisyah, sorryyyyyyyyyyyy and you know I love you no matter what.

May 6, 2009

where's my saving grace?

They don't seem to care. They don't seem to ask anymore.
I wish they knew, but I wish they would never ask.


ups and downs

My tonsil is back again, my throat feels like its been sheared,m y brain keeps telling me that I'm going to fail my diagnostic while my heart says I'm not going to make it thorugh PMR, Auntie Yati tells me to study hard and go to boarding school and everything else in between is just a blur. I don't know what's wrong with me.

Alright, moving on. Well, I actually don't know what to talk of. These few days came and went like the wind. Nothing much to remember of. OH! Yes. I didn't go to school on Monday because mum didn't want to face the Holiday traffic on Sunday. When I went to school on Tuesday, 3 people said they missed me before assembly started. During class, a few other people said they missed me. I remember a few of them: Syaza, Fatin, Atiqah, John, Darrell, Ellya and God-knows who else. Haha. Well, I missed them too :)

And, I'm going to be honest. I only got 2 As 4Bs 1C and 1D. Yes, terrible. I haven't told my parents but well, I don't know. Oh crap, I want to cry. Nevermind, I still have my diagnostics. I hope I do well.

Okay, sambung hiatus.

i wish i knew

Its already May.
And I ask myself, how is that supposed to make me feel?