June 24, 2010


thanks, a lot

Today, I got another

"Why are you so into scouting? I don't get you."

Thanks for asking but, it's not my fault you don't get me.

June 22, 2010

stalking :

Lacey Mosley of Flyleaf.
Her songs are gorgeous and I want her hair.

June 20, 2010

2010 wishes

I plan to
  1. Finish all 5 lencana tertinggi before SPM, go for the end of the year pentarafan.
  2. Get Amateur Radio license.
  3. Expedition up Mount Kinabalu after SPM. (Anybody with me?)
  4. Summer school in St. Martins College of Art & Design.
  5. Become King Scout by 2012.
I've got a feeling in the pit of my stomach which says I'll achieve all of this. Lets pray to God that that "feeling" is right. Amin.

June 12, 2010


*phone rings*
K : Bon soir?
*line gets cut off*
Y : HAHAHAHA! What did you say?
K : Good night? *grins*

So many stupid things have happened this morning. One of them being this recent phone call. A few of them : 1) dad discovering Sims on his Storm 2; 2) dad and mum squealing when I brought a dead rat out of the toilet. Oh my God. My family is so funny.

June 11, 2010

i have

New shoes, and new hair. The new shoes are from Zara, God bless my mother and the new hair, I cut it off myself. It's shorter in front now so I don't mind putting my hair down. Yeah.


Something so random which happened last night. Happened the night before too.

A : Kat. Tolongggggg
K : Kenapa ni Azim?
A : Azim tidur pukul 8, lepas tu bangun and tak boleh tidur balik dah.

My juniors are so fonneh. Especially the scouts which I'm close too. Sometimes I feel like ROFLMAO-ing the whole night long because of their antics. Oh well, they're what keeps me going sometimes.

wishlist 07

Palm Pixi :D

June 10, 2010


Right now, I feel as though I've just been released from my own insecurities. I don't know why it took this long to realize things but I'm greatful. I'm grateful that I've finally realized what I really needed. I suppose the recent camp has made me realize this. The people in the camp too somewhat helped eventhough they don't realize this. I swear I feel like going to a cliff and free fall from the edge of the cliff. Yes, that is how liberated I feel right now. I feel so free and I don't feel the sadness that I felt back then.

And I went crazy and I cut off the front bit of my hair this morning. And I don't feel as rimas as I used to feel. My hair hangs away from my face now. I'm planning to continue tomorrow. Sorry mum, desperate times call for desperate measures. I just need to cut it off. Haha.

Wow. I think-haha-I think I've fulfilled all I wanted to fulfill and it took me three months.


If only I could make you feel how freezing cold my hands are.

things which make my day a little better

Opening meuyskine always makes me a little bit better than I am. I feel inspired too now. What with Yuna and Bo in the background and a whole load of emotions I have yet to empty. Right now, I feel like letting go.


I do not get why certain people do not get why I love scouting more than anything. Here's the thing: I am not as good in anything else as I am in scouting. It's like certain people who have things that they're good in and they know that it's not merely a past time but it's something you know you will have until the end of your life. Well, it's like that for me and scouting. Ask every other scout I know, they'll say that scouting is practically their life. They'd fake an MC if they have to attend camp, they'd skip class, they'd stay up late just for the sake of finishing a log book. Yes, scouting means that much to us.

To some people, it might look kind of stupid to be carrying a rope everywhere you go, but if you don't have a rope in scouts, it's kind of like losing a part of your life. It doesn't matter anyway, I'll carry on with my life and you, carry on with your's respectively. All I know is that I'm doing all that I'm doing right now for King Scouts. If you don't get that, don't bother bothering about me.

If you do bother though, take Baden-Powell's advice:
See things from the boy's point of view.

June 9, 2010

father says

Correcting bad habits cannot be done by forbidding or
-Lord Baden-Powell

June 8, 2010

nak nak nak

If you're a Scout, you'll understand why I'm so obsessed.


I can actually feel myself slowly shutting down right now, which is kind of weird because I've never felt this before. This shutdown is because of Kencana. No, I am not complaining because it was awesome. It really made me open my eyes again to how much I want King Scout. It made me realize once again that if I can follow the pemimpin and kelana's orders down to the letter, why can't I do that at home. It made me realize that when you're the leader, it's all up to you. It also made me realize again: nothing is ever going to be that easy.

Kencana was mainly Usaha. Why? Because Cikgu Syamsurri wanted us to refresh our knowledge in Usaha. It was...easy. I had help, of course from the pemimpins, from the kelanas, from the teachers. And I think I just received "the call" as Syafiq calls it. It's the call to do knots and not stop :D I think it just hit me that I actually enjoy knots. It lets me have something to do with my hands. I also have basics in first aid you *bimbo-mode* I'm so proud of me. Haha!

I'm actually close to falling asleep on the netbook so, let me cut to the chase and I'll continue when...I'm awake. Well, I am on my way to King Scout baby! But, first thing's first : JAYA.


June 4, 2010

Already Gone

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's got to go
-Kelly Clarkson
This didn't turn out how I wished it would, but it's much more than I wanted. I wish things would turn out that way soon.