I allow myself to get hurt by other people, sometimes by my own emotions too. I get poked and prodded, pushed and run over but I still don't stand up for myself. I'm often consumed by my insecurities. The feeling of not belonging anywhere, it consumes me. I feel like I don't know who my friends are, what I want, who I am. It just consumes me, confuses me. I don't know what's wrong with me.
At the end of the day though, I'll cry to Allah. It'd be nice if He gave me a sign though.