know this

13 days to 16 years.

Damn, I feel old.

Eventually, things that I want to do, they never get done.

Sergio Romero, number 22

mental-health

Like 2007, this year is just as trying. Again, someone stole money from dad's firm. The amount of money isn't just a few thousand, it's about RM1.2 million. Mum is trying to cope with everything and I think she has it the hardest so I don't really mind her lashing it out at me all the time. Hajar is going through that stage where she shouts all the time and wants what she wants, no more no less. Muhammad is acting like Hajar. The boys' attitude are not helping at all either. I may seem like I'm okay, but I'm not. I cannot understand why Physics is Physics, I feel stupid all the time now and I'm just tired. Although mum and dad keep saying that my tiredness doesn't compare to theirs, but I think I'm just as tired.

I don't know what else I have to say. This may seem like it all, but I have lots more. I don't have any confidence in telling anyone. I feel like bottling this all up and just keeping it to myself eventhough I know I'm on the verge of breaking down. God. I think I need to see a psychologist.

Sigh.

bon soir

So here's what I've been up to:

1. Art folio
2. Hyperacidity attack
3. Getting fatter

Yeah! It's awesome being me, I know.

School life has been slow. Today we did Nutrition in Bio, and the irony of me having hyperacidity while Puan Suza was teaching about gastric juice in front was just....ironic. We also learnt about cows and squirrels. It was actually funny how cows chew their food twice before defecating. I don't know what's so funny about it, but I laughed crazily.

Went back to school about 2.30, sat in the canteen and got down to doing my art folio. Form 4s are doing batik tshirts, which are super awesome. So I suppose I'll get a tshirt my size for the artifact so I can wear it later on. YEAH. Nothing much happened actually in school. I haven't even started painting yet. Maybe one of these days eh?

And I feel like sleeping all the time now. ZZZZZZZ.

problematic people

I : Hoi hoi
K : Hui
I : Hei
K : Haaai
I : Heeeei

Cheese! :D