failure to launch

I just had to

2011-02-14T18:20:00.002+08:00

It's too light to be true. Oh yes, I wished I had gotten my Easy Tones instead but these are nice too. There was another line similar to this yesterday but...it was bulkier. Oh vell. I have these new babies and I'm going to put them to good use. I shall wear them until I can wear them no more.

And yes, I'm in the midst of my first intervension so...adieu :~D

adventures in a black Iswara

2011-02-05T17:11:00.002+08:00

Alas, my topic sounds as though I've been driving for ages. Truth is, I had some, well, amateur driving class from an amateur with grandma, grandpa, ma and pa shouting from the house. It was funny and enjoyable. Minus the shouting of course. And Yusof constantly trying to hog the steering. I felt like ASDASDASD-ing him. But oh well, he's been away for two months and it's high time I started digging deeper for more...goss? *grin* Yeah. That's just how we roll.

So that's what I've been up to here in Ayer Baloi. And now I can try driving the blue Milo-tin of an Iswara back in KL. And then who knows, I might be able to drive out to Setiawangsa for tuition instead of waiting dad. But I still need to know how to drive. I only know how to reverse and go forward. Which consists of the clutch, the gear and releasing the clutch. Does not intrigue me at all. Oh well. Good things come to those who wait.

All in all, tomorrow I'll be back in KL and school starts again on Monday. Alas, what a good week it's been. What with my bronchitis and my meds which make me feel drowsy all the time. OH. But I forgot to mention, I met Mei on Wednesday before we got here. I must say I've missed her a lot. And well, it's like meeting the older sister who went overseas to study and only just got back. Ok. That's a bad metaphor but it's something like that. Mmmm.

Right now I'm hoping to see more of Mei, to jog more and get rid of my pretty arse and of course, study my head off. All is well :-D

ah, it's almost February

2011-01-29T12:04:00.002+08:00

Hello all. No, I still haven't showered (hehe) and yes, I'M ONLINE! Yeah. Well, the boys are all out for Adni's swimming carnival. No girls allowed, not even mothers. Oh vell. Alas, here I am happily updating my song list. It's turning out to be a mixture of indie rock, alternative, post-rock and a hint of metal. Yes, metal. It's a new year so it's a new song list.

Alas. It's already the 29th. I can't believe January is ending just like that. Wished it could've stretched on longer. Even so, 10 more months people! I can take that long. It's not 10 years. But then again, it's not 10 days. Oh, and I just signed up for SPM and, yes, I'm taking 12 subjects. I've seen the French paper. It's a cross between DeLF A2 and B1 with oral mixed in altogether in the paper. Looks good. Let's just hope I can do good during SPM. 12 subjects is risky business. But then again if I get 12As that would just be awesome. I've got my sights set on dad's alma mater, Nottingham. But maybe I'd try and apply for Cambridge. Yeah. Even so, I haven't really checked online any of the campuses, class structure etc. I'll do it soon.

I feel sleep deprived too. In a week, I only get to have my afternoon naps once. If I'm lucky enough, I can nap twice in a week. But even so, I enjoy my afternoons during basketball training and Wangsa Raya practice. In spite of the muscle strains, my weak ankle and the sweat, it's worth it. My stamina is doing good and I've learnt to appreciate my training. Not to mention my shoes too! Haha. Speaking of shoes, I've been having shoe fetishes. Especially 'em pretty training/running shoes. Dad's ordered me a pair of Reebok EasyTone from his personal trainer, Cash and they're white! Hollah. I'm thinking of getting a pair of basketball shoes too. It's RM300+++ a pair though. Anybody care to sponsor me? Eheh.

Other than that, I'm doing okay. I finish my homework and notes on time, I enjoy singing randomly with Fatin dearest and alas, high jump. Nothing beats all that adrenaline. Also, I'm taking classes at Kristal Suria near the Setiawangsa LRT and truthfully, it's not bad. Nothing beats Mr Chan though. But the teachers are cool and so far I enjoy everything I'm learning and Kak Wan, the receptionist, is very very very nice too! Oh, and did I mention Ali Maju? Hehe. Nasi goreng ayam FTW.

Gosh. I think I can get fat like this. Ah no matter. When those EasyTones arrive I'll jog my ass off.

end of week one

2011-01-07T20:29:00.003+08:00

Its already the end of the first week of school. Truth be told, I feel okay about 5 Bina. The people are cool but I still miss the good old 4 Azam. But its a new year so its all going to be new whether I like it or not. I'm sitting beside Fatin and she's got this vibe which makes me want to do something all the time, which is good. Hehe. I've been studying these past few days which, evidently, is a good start :-)

Okay what else. Yusof is coming back this Sunday! I missed you big guy. Its been ages. So its another 48 hours minus 'til he's home. And Mr Chan is as cool as ever. Last night I was doing my Add Maths and somehow our conversation got to the Roman Catholic Church and the Protestants. Awesome huh. This is why I adore him so much. And as much a I'd like to get extra classes elsewhere, I don't think I will. Haha! And I've got a new mate from Danau Kota. Her name is Farah and she's pretty nice. And I told Mr Chan that a few of you guys (ahem) are joining and I think he's excited. Oh goodie! I miss Hana and Hanan though. Even so, Iskandar will be around during the holidays. So all in all, I'm good yaw.

And going into the new year, it looks to be pretty tight. Extra classes are starting in school and it'll be on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Wangsa Raya training is on Wednesday-and Azfar is about to kill us all, and alas, basketball next Tuesday. Art folios start in February and I'm pretty sure about taking French for SPM. Yeehaw! And I like form five Physics. I'm already starting to like Waves.

All in all, 2011 looks good.

2011-01-01T22:20:00.001+08:00

I might be on hiatus for the next...365 days. Don't wait up ;-)

janvier, deux mille onze

2011-01-01T21:19:00.005+08:00

So, it is now 2011. Today at One Stop when I was getting my school uniform etc, the shop-assistant behind the counter asked which form I was in. I hesitantly answered, "Form five kak" and I smiled. I think I felt some sort of achievement in me. Hello, I'm a senior this year. I'm sitting for SPM and I can't wait for it to be over with. I want to get out of Malaysia as soon as SPM is over and study. Then again, I can't wait for Monday.

A recap on what has happened over the eve of New Year's eve, New Year's eve and the new year. I spent the eve of New Year's eve in art class with Darrell, Janiz and Elsa eating Popeye's, celebrating Darrell's 16th (HOORAY! :D) while constructing our models. Had Mr Chan too later at night. I spent 2 hours doing Electrolytic Cells while listening to Iskandar and Izzat chat about random random things with Mr Chan. Hanan was in for a bit and I got some 2010 SPM papers (Y).

On New Year's eve, I spent my morning watching season 9 of CSI: Miami. After Maghrib, we went out to Wangsa Walk to get our school bags, bottles etc. In the end, we only bought bottles from Popular and ate Subway. I texted Yusof and bought a Bros bottle with cartoon-Bento pictures on it. I slept around 11 only to be awoken by fireworks. God-knows why there were fireworks at 11. And I read TIME magazine for a bit and fell asleep again. Woke up at 12 to hear fireworks, again. I didn't send anybody any New Year's texts. And I sleep-replied Mei's text going "Happy new year to you tou too mei ♥". Sorry for the wrong grammar. I blame it entirely on my irritation towards the fireworks disturbing my sleep.

And today, well, I had some leftover Subway for breakfast. Went out to KLCC with the whole lot and I scored a bag from Reebok. It's a pretty pink one too with geometrical shapes all over. I feel happy. I think next-eh, this year will be a good one. New class, new bottle, new bag and one not-so-new Khadijah. Yeah! Oh. And I got mum to buy me Yuna's Decorate so here I am, happily listening to the album on repeat. Spent my evening out with Dd and Danial at NZ, and that's dinner.

Now, here I am typing away, synchronizing dad's (not-so) ancient iPod Nano, hypnotized by the LED coverage indicator of the Storm 2 and listening to Yuna. What a good way to end the holidays. Hopefully, tomorrow's stationary shopping will be awesome.

To end this post, here's a New Year's picture of yours truly for you readers *sexy wink*

Yeeeeah. I'm changing my style. I'll post up the the tutorial when I remember. If I don't, then you'll just have to wait. But if you're too ecstatic for the video, you can get it from Count The Thread. Dig deep. It's somewhere there C:

2010-12-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

Tigers, congratulations on your win tonight :)

I must say, I have never felt this proud before. Hello, this is Malaysia we are talking about. Despite everything else, Malaysia can do good. We just have to work hard for it.

2010-12-26T01:46:00.000+08:00

Relevant

2010-12-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

I think I'm going to end things with you.

2010-12-26T01:09:00.002+08:00

Despite any other resolutions I have made up in my mind over the past two months of holidays, there's only one that I need to fulfil above everything else: I need to clear my head. Only now do I realise how my feelings interfere with my head. Okay, granted I have realised this for a long time but it's not easy clearing one's head especially when dealing with your feelings. It's like dealing with a break up. I think. That's beside the point. I just need to get off of cloud nine, land back here on planet Earth and set my priorities straight.

I know I haven't been the best daughter/student/sister and whatever else everybody expects of me, but I promise, I'll try very hard next year. I need to get back into my game. I need to stop caring about petty things and start prioritising. Although I am not a firm believer of looking good on paper, but to get accepted into big places and major in, lets say, Medicine, I will obviously need good results. Regardless, I just want high school to be over and done with. I want to go somewhere new, I want to learn new things, meet new people. Maybe take History as a sideline.

I've been thinking a lot too. I may drop Physics and possibly Art too, and take up French for SPM. The only As I got for my finals were Bahasa Melayu, English, Pendidikan Islam and Sejarah; subjects required to take Law. And my linguistics look stronger now. No harm done in taking a third language. And it's French. Pffft. Some revision classes at Alliance Française should do it. So now, I know what I want to do, I know what I need to do, all that's left now is to do it.

I really hope 2011 will be a good year. I know 2010 isn't. Most of the feelings I've felt this year: pathetic, unappreciated, stupid. Hah. Life is great innit. Probably the only best thing was scouting, and the close people I have around me.

Other than that, 2010 is just another version of 2008.

2010-12-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

It was only yesterday that I was saying to myself, "Wow Khadijah. You haven't gotten really really sick this year" and voila, I am now having the sniffles and cough so bad. This morning I swear every time I coughed, it felt like my tonsils were going to come out.

Unf. I may just be worried.

let me be a girly girl

2010-12-22T08:14:00.003+08:00

Hehe. Okay. I have a thing for intricate, simple jewellery. For example, I have this gold bracelet which is actually an heirloom from my grandmother's mother-in-law, and was previously owned by arwah before being passed down to me. As much as I love it, I don't dare wear it. It's thin, intricate and old. Could be 30 years old, or more. But yeah, it's gorgeous. I don't mind having a few like that.

On to the point, I was surfing Garance Doré's blog and stumbled upon this pretty ring. It's Dior and it's called a Oui ring. I want it but of course the price est trés trés trés bien too. It's Dior. Did I say that already? Not a chance that I'll get it. Maybe when I get married huh. Could be my engagement ring *cough cough cough* Or not.

I'd want a pretty vintage Malay ring to go with it. The other day, after my practical exam, dad took me to the Komplex Kraf Kuala Lumpur and there was this guy selling all the pretty vintage jewellery and there was one which I wanted. Unfortunately, dad didn't bring his check book at the time and didn't have cash on him. So, okay, dad said he'd go get it another day. Yeay! The next time dad went there, someone had already bought it. Bummer.

Nevermind though. There's also this other guy in Amcorp who sells vintage jewellery and such. Hehe.

relevant, or not?

2010-12-21T16:51:00.002+08:00

'Interlok' withdrawn after discussion with Education Ministry and DBP: Murugiah

BERNAMA

KUALA LUMPUR: The withdrawal of the Form Five literature textbook, "Interlok", which was alleged to contain sensitive elements that might be offensive to the Malays and Indians, was made after discussions with relevant authorities including the Education Ministry and Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka (DBP).

Deputy Minister in the Prime Minister's Department, Datuk T. Murugiah, said the Public Complaints Bureau (PCB) had been deluged with complaints on some sensitive words in the book and, as chairman of the bureau, he believed that immediate actions should be taken to resolve the issue.

"I called on the Education Ministry, DBP and all the relevant parties to convene a meeting to discuss and make a consensus decision on the issue," he told reporters at the Parliament lobby on Monday.

Murugiah was commenting on a reader's letter published in a Malay daily on Monday pertaining to the withdrawal of the literature textbook on Dec 15.

The reader, M. Hanafiah A. Samad from Muar, Johor, said Murugiah had acted in haste when announcing the withdrawal of the textbook, when it should be done by the Education Ministry.

Murugiah said the issue of the withdrawal of the textbook was misinterpreted, and hoped it would not be prolonged for fear that it would create other problems.

"People misinterpreted this issue, so I want to offer an explanation. He (M. Hanafiah) said he wrote the letter based on history and his own experience, I understand that, but this is not a history book, this is a literature book.

"In a literature book, the language can be twisted. On that ground, we proposed to the Education Ministry to withdraw it and said that it was up to them if they want to keep it, but they accepted our proposal (to withdraw)," he said.

Interlok is authored by national laureate, Abdullah Hussain and displays a theme of integration of the three races, namely Malays, Chinese and Indians, as early as 1900's till the independence of Malaya.

If only now you're worried about racial issues, then why bother releasing it to us in the first place. Come on Malaysia. You're better than this.

2010-12-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

I have the same doubts I had 10 months ago. This time, some things seem even more possible.

2010-12-14T01:30:00.002+08:00

I allow myself to get hurt by other people, sometimes by my own emotions too. I get poked and prodded, pushed and run over but I still don't stand up for myself. I'm often consumed by my insecurities. The feeling of not belonging anywhere, it consumes me. I feel like I don't know who my friends are, what I want, who I am. It just consumes me, confuses me. I don't know what's wrong with me.

At the end of the day though, I'll cry to Allah. It'd be nice if He gave me a sign though.

2010-12-12T13:48:00.002+08:00

I want to write, but I don't know what to write. Yeah. I think I really need to get into the mood. Or something. Not right now. I need alone time in my room. And maybe someone to make me sad. I bet with all the water works, I'll find something to write even though it's won't be relevant at all to anything that I'm going through.

And I'm going back to KL today. Too much of lazing around doing nothing in Ayer Baloi, waking up late, eating too much. Too bad I haven't renewed my passport, or else I would've persuaded dad to bring me down to Singapore. Thought of going radio hunting. But in reality, I haven't even posted my AA form yet. Nevermind.

Beranganlah kan.

vingt-cinque

2010-12-11T12:35:00.002+08:00

Okay. I have been tagged by the lovely miss Nadihah Begum (wink wink), and truth be told I haven't done this in a really really really long time. I haven't really been writing much either. Hehe. So, here it goes, 25 facts about...yours truly.

I am Siti Khadijah bt Anwarul Haq and I am 16.
I easily get peeved when the lights and fan are left on even when there's no one else around.
I am fascinated by, sometimes, even the simplest of things.
I like Chemistry, a lot.
I think a bit too much, and I'm insecure.
I scout. Girl Guides isn't for me. No offense intended.
I would get married in my scout uniform, if I could. Ha ha.
I paint, play piano and I like amazing Disney/Pixar movies.
I'm always in awe when I watch Avatar. Yes, the blue monkeys.
Tea is my number one substance of choice.
I can do a 12-hour marathon of Discovery, Nat Geo and History.
I have a tendency to talk about facts I've read or watched.
Apparently, I have the face of a judge/headmistress. It's crazy, I know. I suppose that's why people don't talk a lot to me? Unless they know me, of course.
I talk about myself a lot sometimes, sorry Darrell.
I have no idea what sport I can play. Swimming probabbly?
I read in all kinds of positions.
I like people like Mr Chan, Walter (in Fringe) and all these other awesome Science people.
I want to explore the universe.
I speak French too.
I don't mind majoring in History and Law one day. Yeah. I'm crazy like that.
Worse comes to worse, I'll become a police officer. Work for the air force perhaps? Haha.
I have so many things in my head.
I'd move away to Javanese land if I could.
Camps have never felt more like home.
And lastly, I know I'll turn out to be a successful person.

2010-12-10T03:47:00.002+08:00

John Noble FTW. I'd totally love it if he taught me all three Science subjects in school.

2010-12-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

Carpe diem sounds impossible. Almost like a far off dream somewhere. I don't believe in carpe diem, really.

Mr Chan

2010-12-05T19:13:00.002+08:00

Undeniably the best teacher ever.

I could solve Add Maths problems for two hours straight with him. And seriously him teaching Chemistry is just *two thumbs up*. He likes fractions and he can insert any form of Science teaching into a conversation at any given time. I don't know anybody else who can do it like he can.

I wish to be like him someday *salute*

2010-12-02T19:40:00.003+08:00

These holidays feel like a month's worth of break whilst our mid-term break felt like the end of the year holidays. This isn't good. I only have 29 more days to sleep well and enjoy staying at home doing just about nothing.

GelaSkins

2010-12-02T09:41:00.000+08:00

macaroni and cheese

2010-11-27T22:29:00.003+08:00

I haven't been doing a lot lately. Mostly spending time watching Chuck and waiting for Fringe's next episode to come out while surfing Tumblr. Other than that, I do what I normally do every other day. I have piano on Tuesday, art class and Mr Chan's on Thursday. I wash my hair almost every morning now that I have the time. I haven't been eating dinner and now I have the tendency to ignore the calls I receive. It doesn't really matter anyway. December is coming, and 2011 will come approaching in a bit. I will then have bigger and more important things to worry about then. Honestly though, I think this year's holidays feel a lot better than last year. I know how desperate I was to go out last year but this year, not really. I'd rather stay home, watch a movie (or two) and drink lots of hot, strong tea. But it's as sad as it gets. Nobody's home. Only me, the netbook, the BlackBerry and food. Not to mention, the textbooks which I have yet to re-wrap when I feel like it. Haha. I'm a bad procrastinator, I know.

And as far as studying is concerned, I did indices and log at Mr Chan's the other day and we ended up talking about lots of things. That always happens when you're around Mr Chan and two other awesome people who can make you forget your worries. And Mr Chan is really awesome and filled with quirks. For instance, he enjoys fractions and he told us that he has about 80+ white t-shirts which he wears all the time. He plays badminton, and he makes me love Chemistry even more than I already do. He's great for advice too. All in all, I'd love to grow up to become someone like him one day.

Oh. Did you hear? I've finally decided to become a litigator or maybe major purely in History. Damn right I have. It's crazy though. I can imagine me standing up in front of the judge's desk, in court, questioning witnesses, fighting for my client. Yeah, the thought scares me but oh well. I bet I'll do a fine job one day. I might end up becoming a judge. My grand-uncle was a police and one day he looked at me and said that I could become a judge because I have that stern face. It's true. Well, whatever it is, I know I'll succeed in my life.

Hm. All rise for the honourable judge, Mrs Khadijah. Ewah

eh eh eh

2010-11-25T10:03:00.002+08:00

My vuvuzela has just arrived from South Africa. Yeyuh. Mum has a friend in South Africa and she bought it/helped buy it (?) for me. I actually jumped up and about in the kitchen when I saw it. But, I don't actually know what I'm planning on doing with it but I feel like drawing on it using colourful Sharpies.

But whatever it is, I HAVE MY VUVUZELA DAMN RIGHT.

best news all year

2010-11-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

All my effort paid off. I PASSED MY RAEs, bloody hell! Haha! Okay. Now. Apparatus assignment. Damn right.

Case-Mate

2010-11-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

Not the one I want but seeing as I can't find the Incipio ones. And it's selling for RM79. Ugh. I don't know whether or not I should get this. But I'm getting annoyed with it restarting every time it hits a surface too hard.

*pulls hair*

d-d-d-damn

2010-11-16T17:37:00.002+08:00

Fish-eye and macro/wide-angle lenses for phone pics with a punch

I want one from Photojojo, s'il te plait.

Firefly

2010-11-16T16:43:00.003+08:00

Because my Canon is somehow in Error 99, I have to make do with the Storm. Oh yes, did I mention I got the Storm already? Haha. Slap me please. I need to release my bimboness. Anyway, on with the flight. Well, I woke up at 5 something after a 2-hour sleep because I watched Fringe (teehee) and we went out of the house around 6 something. Reached Subang airport, mum dropped us off, dad bought a padlock for my bad, I loitered and found Starbucks and bought hazelnut hot chocolate and we checked in. Had breakfast at McDonalds and we went to the departure gate. Everything was set, and we took off. Suddenly in mid-flight, the captain came on saying that the plane had a minor technical error and that we will be turning back around to land. That was 9 am. A few minutes later, as I was happily watching the 1996 version of Romeo + Juliet, they said that the flight would be delayed until 12 pm. Great. Just fruitcaking great. Lucky Tok Wak and Tok Bik lived around the area so we dropped by, ate doughnuts, watched Azizul Hasni Awang kick ass and went back to the airport. When we reached the airport, over the departure gate there was the pretty LED sign thing, and it said that our flight was at 1.30 pm. Lagi fruitcake kan?

In the end, we got restless and we all slept soundly on the plane. When we landed, there were already dark clouds in the sky. As soon as I entered the terminal, it started raining. Great timing.

And now, I have the sniffles. Ugh.

Incipio

2010-11-15T22:03:00.001+08:00

Because, I'd love one of these pretty cases. The Storm enjoys turning itself off all the time, it's getting annoying. Well, lets see if I can find something like this in Alor Setar. If I can't, I'll just get a Case Mate from Mudah then.

And yeah, I finally got the Storm. I think it's a guy. Haha.

um, well

2010-11-12T19:34:00.001+08:00

Is this okay? Haha. I'm being so self-conscious right now. Usually I'm not but because this would be my first time in a skirt. ASDASDASDASD.

Kill me now.

like, i know right?

2010-11-11T18:42:00.002+08:00

Exams are finally over. Thank God. Even so, I still have one more paper: art. That's on Monday though. Still. I'm not in the mood. I wonder why they couldn't have gotten it over and done with tomorrow. I bet I'll lose my mood somewhere along the next few days. Imagine: tomorrow we'll only be going to school to return our text books, on Saturday I have the koperasi hi-tea then later in the evening I have the Keramat campfire down in Padang Tembak. I feel disorganized right now. Ugh *pulls hair*

At least for now though, I can sleep peacefully. Can't wait to see Mr Chan later tonight and cry to him about Chemistry and Add Maths. Haha. Pathetic, I know.

TL-180

2010-11-09T20:03:00.002+08:00

C'est belle non?

I miss speaking French. I think I just might start again next year. Or in the nearest time. I miss babbling so fast that no one understands what I'm saying. I think French always comes out ever so prettily no matter what. You could be cursing and yet, no one would know.

Ah, je t'aime, Française.

2010-11-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

there'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat if you ever come back, there'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on and it will be just like you were never gone
-The Script

Biology

2010-11-08T05:48:00.003+08:00

As I was studying Biology last night, I swear I felt as though my brain wasn't there and someone took my head away and yanked all the hair out. I felt so light headed and wounded up by the fact that the invitations for the hi-tea wasn't printed yet (I blame our sucktastic lazerjet) and that I hadn't studied that much for ANYTHING. I tried to sleep but I couldn't. I felt even more light-headed and restless than ever. Whined to Izzat, and wounded up falling asleep around 2 am and I had a nightmare. I was admitted to the hospital because I had a concussion or something and they kept giving me pain killers which made me sleep and gave me dreams and, mind you, this was inside my dream. Ugh. Izzat was admitted to the hospital too. He was hit real bad on the jaw. Lots of blood but right now I can only remember bits and pieces of the dream. All in all, it was scary and confusing and I woke up just now at about 5 am feeling even more let-me-pull-my-hair-out than ever.

If this is what anxiousness does to you then it's just downright crazy. Right. Crazy.

what's up Google maps?

2010-11-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

I think this made me laugh the hardest. Second was when Ihsan posted something on Twitter saying "Boobs like coffee filters...#WTF". I was laughing like, ASDASDASDASDASD! And well, it's good to be laughing about crap every now and then isn't it?

Okay. Back to Biology. Last week of exams. Ugh *die*

right now:

2010-11-07T16:18:00.003+08:00

I feel saddy poo now.

Kate Moss for Topshop

2010-11-05T09:12:00.002+08:00

I have never really fancied anything from Topshop, mainly because of the price and sometimes the materials and the cutting of the dress etc is not really to my satisfaction (ceh, as if I know anything about all that huh), but this collection looks pretty.

2010-11-03T14:05:00.004+08:00

Finally, a sneak peek at the skirt for the hi-tea. I thought of just wearing a plain long-sleeved t-shirt with it but then Yusof bought this awesome shirt (pictured above) and I was thinking of pairing it with a blazer.

Yes? No?

ohoy-ohoy

2010-10-30T15:32:00.002+08:00

The umrah visa pictures. Ugh look at them cheeks.

2010-10-30T10:16:00.002+08:00

My skirt for the hi-tea is something like this. But I might have to sew in the lining. The lining now is kinda short. Teehee.

I'll take pictures when I feel like it. I just got back my memory card.

pictures via gary pepper vintage

you say 'Goodbye' and i say 'Hello'

2010-10-30T09:57:00.001+08:00

2010-10-29T18:19:00.003+08:00

I have such difficulties writing out what I feel. Although I know I want to but every time I type it all out I just eventually hit the backspace button. If and only if feelings could just be erased with a single backspace, I think I'd be fine.

But I think I should try writing this out. So, I'll start as Mei once told me way back when. I feel sad. It's so many things really. I know I'm not good enough, I'm not working hard enough. I'm sad how there are people who only see things they want to see and not really what's going on underneath. I'd say "siapa makan cili terasa pedasnya" but I don't think he'll notice. I'm sad because I am constantly reminded of Arwah Auntie Oni. Yes, I pray for her all the time. As much as I try to shut these feelings out, they'll just keep coming back. I remember how the last taxi ride I took was with her, I remember how there was a sketch I did while I was with her in the hospital. I remember how she'd enjoy having me over her house. I remember how I was just like her own daughter. I remember how that one Raya, I went back with her to KL.

God, why am I talking about this. Forget about it, okay. I don't know why I did this in the first place. It's so pathetic, really.

Ya Allah, I'm sorry.

2010-10-29T13:36:00.001+08:00

I think I remember the blue cheongsam :'(

2010-10-26T19:28:00.002+08:00

2010-10-24T11:36:00.000+08:00

Okay, go?

Jill Sander

2010-10-24T09:56:00.000+08:00

because i have nothing better to do

2010-10-23T20:06:00.001+08:00

Lookbook-stalking

2010-10-17T10:45:00.003+08:00

inspired

2010-10-16T19:32:00.005+08:00

Is it okay if I get a long white flowy skirt and wear something like this to the koperasi high-tea? Or maybe that jersey dress from Zara? Yeah. We'll see.

via Style Covered

take me away from here

2010-10-15T20:25:00.002+08:00

This is keeping my mind off of things at the moment. It would be best to just let me finish this, and I'll be eternally greatful. I know I might not be at the top of my league in my studies right now, but I'm trying alright. I really am. Yes, you may say that I'm not giving it any effort but you have no bloody idea.

Nobody is saying the right things I need to hear, that's all I can say.

2010-10-15T16:38:00.002+08:00

I'm still very much here. You know why? The camping got cancelled, that's why. Sigh. I was looking forward to it. It doesn't matter now. The only thing I'm looking forward to right now is continuing the mural tomorrow and next week's lintas hormat for the form five graduation. And the koperasi's annual high-tea is on the 30th. Something else to be looking forward to. I feel like buying the dress from Zara which I previously posted. The floor-length one.

Right now, I want to get over today. I kinda feel cheated on.

we're only shadows

2010-10-13T20:04:00.001+08:00

This sounds like something that would end up in an episode of Gossip Girl.

Zara

2010-10-10T09:33:00.005+08:00

if you love me won't you let me know

2010-10-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

Johnny's guitar riffs makes me get goosebumps.

2010-10-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hi. Some self-loving here, excuse me, but I got bored.

So well, my mood has been going on and off. I spent nearly my whole morning crying. Yesterday I cried too which, considering the situation, was kinda pathetic. Last Saturday, I was mooning about in art class, I got mad at Darrell and every other single person who ticked me off. Hormones are so tiring. But I guess after a while they just stop bugging you. I feel much better today, even if I did get mad just now. Its okay I guess. They come, they go.

Lately though, I haven't been able to sketch properly. Like, seriously, my sketches are haywire. I actually tore out two pages out of my sketch book. God-knows whats wrong with me. I'm even getting worn out painting. The painting I'm working on right now is still a work in progress. I've spent nearly three weeks on it now. But because I was indescribably chirpy today, I'm almost done with it. Just some details and that's it. Hm.

Kem Kemahiran is this 15th. Even so, I haven't even distributed the forms to those who are going. But most of them are form threes. Okay, fine, 3/4 of them are form threes. Ergo, I have to wait for PMR to end. For what it's worth though, I'm going for camp! Haha. I swear I miss camping. Although I got to camp for the orienteering in Wetlands the other day, it wasn't that fun. One, there wasn't any of the kelanas; two, there seemed to be no one I knew-or maybe it's just me; three, I still prefer Scout camps.

Ugh. So, lets see, I have to study for finals, go for camp, help Cikgu Syam with the lintas hormat for the form fives' grad and, somehow, survive? It's possible.

complexgeometries

2010-10-03T16:58:00.005+08:00

want.

adieu

2010-10-02T14:10:00.002+08:00

I'll be back tomorrow. Bye XX

great, just great

2010-10-01T21:25:00.004+08:00

I ate maggi the night before my trip to Putrajaya. Because I was lazy, I used hot water. Mum scolded me for not eating propperly. Out of ignorace, I obviously ignored her. As I was about to lift the bowl, hot water came sloshing down the sides. My left hand was burnt the worst. I spent the whole night with an ice pack and Repairil gel, meant for muscle pains, but it was cooling enough and, I was desperate. I thought I'd go to Guardian before heading out to Putrajaya. Lucky enough, the ice pack and Repairil gel was soothing enough. It only hurt a little the next day.

This is what they call "Tuhan bayar cash". Sorry mum.

2010-10-01T20:49:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Putrajaya. Well, I've been back since yesterday. No, the girls' team didn't win. Punched the control card wrongly. The guys however, they won consolation. I guess Cikgu Syam was kind of broken hearted which is...understandable. I guess I could say that we trained with a top gun. But anyway, the guys placed number 5 out of the other 20 schools who participated which is cool. And congrats to Syaza, Aisyah, Atiqah and Hafizuddin who went out for the kuiz pelancongan the same day we went to Putrajaya and placed third! YEAH. Go SVians!

Now that orienteering is over, I need to think about RAE. I've studied and I can actually understand. Still have to read on the electrics and electronics. Also not to forget, kem kemahiran on the 15th. It's good to keep me occupied. I feel so disturbed.

Other than that, I passed my grade 3 with a merit. Haha!

2010-09-26T00:51:00.005+08:00

This evening, I had this much to write:

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And now:

*crickets*

Yeay, Khadijah.

Not a need

2010-09-23T20:01:00.003+08:00

But I want it all the same. I feel like trying out a different style. And I feel fat. I think I just might start working out again. I feel like swimming again, too.
via : Maysaa

Utara Peta; Utara Benar

2010-09-22T18:11:00.003+08:00

I'll be away next Wednesday. Yet again, in the Putrajaya Taman Wetlands. In the mean time, I've got to increase my stamina. Even if only a few percent (?) And this De Silva compass will be mine for a week. Damn right.

'Sila gunakan komputer ini dengan cermat'

2010-09-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

This is what you get when you use the computer in the school ICT lab.

RAE 2010-3

2010-09-17T07:41:00.003+08:00

Damn right I got it. I was jumping up and about this whole morning. Haha. I actually forgot about this for awhile until this morning dad said the letter from SKMM arrived and I was like, WHERE WHERE WHERE? And there it was, on the kitchen cabinet. Sigh. What a sight to behold.

And lo, all I have to do now is just study. ASDASDASDAS

Blackberry Storm

2010-09-16T08:46:00.002+08:00

Even Hajar can handle a Blackberry Storm. Can you? Hehe.

bebelan-an dan pengumuman-an

2010-09-14T23:08:00.003+08:00

Introducing *drumroll* Aaron Yusof!
He's Al's younger brother. Right now he's teething and he bit my phone and left bite marks on the screen. The memory makes me smile though. Aaron is tall for a six-month baby and his hair is blonde! Uncle Jordan said that once a barber thought his hair was dyed. Haha! And Yusof didn't believe that Aaron's name had a Yusof in the back until he got a confirmation from Uncle Jordan. See, sometimes you just have to listen to me you know.

So other than that, tonight will be my last night in Ayer Baloi and tomorrow will be visiting two houses before headed on to KL. One thing's for sure: I've put on weight. My Giordano jeans fit perfectly now, ergo, I have gotten fat. So, I might start fasting again.

Alright, last but not least, an announcement : I might turn this into a photoblog. I haven't had anything to write lately and it only occured to me today that I should make a photoblog. So, voila, I shall start posting photos on a daily basis-If I can. Second (okay, yes, announcements) : dad has found out yeah. About something yeah. So I thought you should know yeah.

Call me. Haha! Adios.

2010-09-11T20:59:00.002+08:00

This is Al. He's cute ain't he? :)

cousins

2010-09-11T10:06:00.001+08:00

K : Hey Al, high five?
A : NO! Pukul five! Hiyak!

Little cute kids. You can never get enough of them.

2010-09-08T15:06:00.003+08:00

Yeah. Hi. I don't have anything in particular to write actually. Haha. But one thing's for sure, I haven't packed my bags yet. I'm not really in the mood for Raya this year. Maybe the mood will kick in a bit later. All the same, Selamat Hari Raya to all of you kids. Take care of yourselves.

2010-08-29T05:20:00.001+08:00

Step Up 3.

rose

2010-08-28T07:57:00.002+08:00

Just a little something something for raya. We have no colour scheme by the way. But I think most of the baju kurungs mum sent were all pink. Haha. I don't know.

tepek

2010-08-27T13:12:00.003+08:00

A : What happens twice in a week, once in a year and not in a day?
*semua orang berfikir*
A : E
*everyone goes OH! and laughs*
K : Wait *processing* Twice in a week, once in a year and not in a day? OH! I get yah. Hahahahaha!

I honestly can be really, really slow. Slap me people.

Chris Martin

2010-08-25T21:21:00.004+08:00

Coldplay fans are the best in the world. If you like Coldplay then you’re
obviously very intelligent and good looking and all-around brilliant.
-Chris Martin

2010-08-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

This is inspired.

duapuluhduaharibulanlapan

2010-08-22T22:51:00.004+08:00

Hari ini banyak benda berlaku. Hari ini hari jadi Yusof. Hari ini saya belanja RM18 beli gummi bears dekat Famous Amos. Hari ini saya makan Campbell soup saja untuk sahur. Hari ini saya duduk di Times. Hari ini saya main scales macam itu *dua ibu jari ke atas*. Hari ini saya sakit perut. Hari ini saya makan carbonara. Hari ini saya jadi gila. Dan hari ini, saya beli itu baju Topman yang saya lama sudah mahu.Oklah awak. Kita mengantuk. Bai bai.

Pretty Little Liars

2010-08-21T08:14:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO WATCH THIS SO BAD :O

5 Ramadhan

2010-08-15T20:09:00.003+08:00

Karenah adik-adik tercinta. Wait, minus Ibraheem and Umar. I have more pictures but but but...nevermind. Peace yow. And I got a new top from Zara and a wallet. A BRAND-NEW WALLET.

YEAY YEAY YEAY YEAY YEAY.

aku stalker

2010-08-15T09:42:00.003+08:00

OHMYGOD. Tengok apa aku jumpa! Haha.
Sorry Aisyah, I stalked your blog but oh my God, this picture! This padang, this woman, this this this *breaks down into tears* I miss this so badly :'-)

28/6r Curvy

2010-08-15T08:56:00.005+08:00

MY FIRST EVAH GAP JEANS *lari keliling dunia macam orang gila*
Thank you mommah. And somehow, I don't feel like wearing it because it's too pretty. Haha. Maybe I'll lose a bit of my thighs before I start wearing this. Yeah. Ramadhan, lets go!

And I think I lack writing nowadays. I'm having some sort of a writers block resulting from what happened a few...months back. I don't know. I guess since my aunt's death, I stopped writing for a bit and I nearly gave-up on school work. I don't know how this has got to do with anything, but I'm having a terrible writer's block. I want to write but everytime I pick up a pen or start typing on the netbook I just go blank, period. And I give up altogether. That's why my blog has been *crickets crickets*

Nevermind. I'll try to get back on the right track. We'll see how it goes. Oyes, Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to my readers! :) Jangan tinggal puasa tau.

Deuter

2010-08-12T06:15:00.003+08:00

Anakku tercinta, Hazirah, telah menukar beg dengan saya. Ini beg saya untuk seminggu. Yeah. Ok, selamat pagi. Jom mandi dan ke sekolah! :B

saya dah tua

2010-08-12T05:54:00.004+08:00

I'm really thankful that all of you have wished me. Granted, my night wasn't the one I hoped it would be but the phone calls and texts I got made me feel significantly better. Amongst all, I paling sayang Mei dengan Paan
Mei Paan*superawesomekhadijahhug* I will see you two soon ok? I miss you guys too much.

(Y)

2010-08-10T20:54:00.001+08:00

Nak yang mahal je. Haha. Yeah!

i'm not excited

2010-08-10T20:16:00.002+08:00

But I'm still counting down.
Guess what, I'm turning 16 in 2 days time. Yes yeay yippee! Not.

saya dah nak 16 tahun

2010-08-05T20:05:00.002+08:00

For once I want my own phone. Like, my own brand-new phone which I didn't inherit from someone else just because my phone broke down or something. And suddenly, of all the phones, I like this one. Haha. Oh well, lets pray God answers my prayers.

Also, a conversation before our test

E : Kat, your birthday is on the 12th right?
K : Yeah. Why?
E : I think something epic is going to happen that day. What was it aaaaaaa *muka berfikir*
K : Haha. Okay. What? Nevermind. Anyway, I think I want a new phone.
E : OH YEAH! The new Blackberry is coming out. Haha. Ingat apa.

Damn, I love you people C:

Charlyne Yi

2010-08-01T09:36:00.001+08:00

I is suka-ing her spectacles.

know this

2010-07-31T09:26:00.001+08:00

13 days to 16 years.

Damn, I feel old.

2010-07-12T04:14:00.002+08:00

Eventually, things that I want to do, they never get done.

2010-07-05T20:38:00.001+08:00

Sergio Romero, number 22

mental-health

2010-07-05T20:19:00.002+08:00

Like 2007, this year is just as trying. Again, someone stole money from dad's firm. The amount of money isn't just a few thousand, it's about RM1.2 million. Mum is trying to cope with everything and I think she has it the hardest so I don't really mind her lashing it out at me all the time. Hajar is going through that stage where she shouts all the time and wants what she wants, no more no less. Muhammad is acting like Hajar. The boys' attitude are not helping at all either. I may seem like I'm okay, but I'm not. I cannot understand why Physics is Physics, I feel stupid all the time now and I'm just tired. Although mum and dad keep saying that my tiredness doesn't compare to theirs, but I think I'm just as tired.

I don't know what else I have to say. This may seem like it all, but I have lots more. I don't have any confidence in telling anyone. I feel like bottling this all up and just keeping it to myself eventhough I know I'm on the verge of breaking down. God. I think I need to see a psychologist.

Sigh.

bon soir

2010-07-02T19:26:00.008+08:00

So here's what I've been up to:

Art folio
Hyperacidity attack
Getting fatter

Yeah! It's awesome being me, I know.

School life has been slow. Today we did Nutrition in Bio, and the irony of me having hyperacidity while Puan Suza was teaching about gastric juice in front was just....ironic. We also learnt about cows and squirrels. It was actually funny how cows chew their food twice before defecating. I don't know what's so funny about it, but I laughed crazily.

Went back to school about 2.30, sat in the canteen and got down to doing my art folio. Form 4s are doing batik tshirts, which are super awesome. So I suppose I'll get a tshirt my size for the artifact so I can wear it later on. YEAH. Nothing much happened actually in school. I haven't even started painting yet. Maybe one of these days eh?

And I feel like sleeping all the time now. ZZZZZZZ.

problematic people

2010-07-02T19:13:00.001+08:00

I : Hoi hoi
K : Hui
I : Hei
K : Haaai
I : Heeeei

Cheese! :D

2010-06-24T04:12:00.002+08:00

I WANT HER HAIR.

thanks, a lot

2010-06-24T02:18:00.002+08:00

Today, I got another

"Why are you so into scouting? I don't get you."

Thanks for asking but, it's not my fault you don't get me.

stalking :

2010-06-22T16:58:00.002+08:00

Lacey Mosley of Flyleaf.
Her songs are gorgeous and I want her hair.

2010 wishes

2010-06-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

I plan to

Finish all 5 lencana tertinggi before SPM, go for the end of the year pentarafan.
Get Amateur Radio license.
Expedition up Mount Kinabalu after SPM. (Anybody with me?)
Summer school in St. Martins College of Art & Design.
Become King Scout by 2012.

I've got a feeling in the pit of my stomach which says I'll achieve all of this. Lets pray to God that that "feeling" is right. Amin.

Paper Heart

2010-06-13T13:04:00.001+08:00

ROFLMAO

2010-06-12T11:00:00.004+08:00

*phone rings*
K : Bon soir?
*line gets cut off*
Y : HAHAHAHA! What did you say?
K : Good night? *grins*

So many stupid things have happened this morning. One of them being this recent phone call. A few of them : 1) dad discovering Sims on his Storm 2; 2) dad and mum squealing when I brought a dead rat out of the toilet. Oh my God. My family is so funny.

i have

2010-06-11T16:58:00.005+08:00

New shoes, and new hair. The new shoes are from Zara, God bless my mother and the new hair, I cut it off myself. It's shorter in front now so I don't mind putting my hair down. Yeah.
GO HOLIDAYS.

01:00

2010-06-11T10:39:00.003+08:00

Something so random which happened last night. Happened the night before too.

A : Kat. Tolongggggg
K : Kenapa ni Azim?
A : Azim tidur pukul 8, lepas tu bangun and tak boleh tidur balik dah.

My juniors are so fonneh. Especially the scouts which I'm close too. Sometimes I feel like ROFLMAO-ing the whole night long because of their antics. Oh well, they're what keeps me going sometimes.

wishlist 07

2010-06-11T10:36:00.001+08:00

Palm Pixi :D